Tuesday, March 6, 2012

letter to me.


currently you are nineteen years old. you have what you'd call a grown up job and it is nothing like you pictured, but you are learning to love it. school is not your strong suit right now but you are doing your best, well okay, you could do better. it's easier to stay caught up, especially in college. 

high school will not be what you expected it to be. both for the good and bad. sophomore year will be the best. you will meet someone very important who happens to change most of your life from there on out. junior year will be the hardest. you don't adjust well to change and junior year is all about change. new school, new friends, etc. senior year you will love the moments you don't spend at school because of the friends you make. graduation won't come soon enough. 

the university of utah won't be for you though and you will learn that after you apply and get your acceptance letter. you will live at home for the majority of your freshman year of college because that is where you need to be. moving out is an adventure awaiting though- a rather current adventure. 

your sister kara will serve a mission in thailand and your brother brad will join the marines at the same time. seeing your family on opposite sides of the world will be an adjustment. but you and the oldest sister, lynsey will become best of friends and venture to hawaii with mom and dad for christmas. you will learn that sitting at the dinner table with all six of the lawrences will be one of the best feelings in the world. you live for those moments because they don't happen all too often. 

speaking of family, mother will be your bestest friend in the whole wide world. you will go to her for all advice. her hugs will heal a scrapped knee or a broken heart. she will drop everything to make sure you are okay when your ill and she will make you laugh more than anyone in the world. you wish to be just like her when you are a grown up. 

the friends you meet in elementary school will continue to be your friends for a long time. you take a senior trip with all of them to your favorite place in the world-lake powell. your best friend will get married soon after graduation, and though you don't talk much you will stay best friends. 

you will adore many boys. but there is one in particular that you fancy more than chocolate cake. you fall in love with him at the ripe age of 16.without fail this boy will know you better than most people. he is two years older than you, meaning soon after you fall in love he will serve a mission for the church. it will be a long hard two years. you will miss him everyday. letters will become your little piece of heaven, and the good news. on your darkest day, when all hope is lost for the fateful day of his homecoming, you can hold onto these words. he does come home. two years flies by in reality. but it won't be what you expected after that, but just remember that all things happen for a reason. 

you believe in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. you have a testimony that you lean on every single day. you try to be a little better each and everyday. 

when you are in fifth grade, you will realize you suffer from anxiety. it comes with who you are. but you don't let it run your life. it just means you are a little bit more crazy than most people. it also makes you cry a lot. especially the teen years. you learn to fight for what you want though and you are also really stubborn. you don't give up easily that is for sure. you wear your heart on your sleeve most days and trust easily. 

so far nineteen years has treated you well. the last piece of advice is, every trail you are handed you will be able to get through and it will only make you stronger. laugh, you love to laugh and be silly. you stay a little girl at heart and don't ever really grow up. 



  1. that was so cute and sweet. i loved it.

  2. i don't know what in the world is going on with me the last few weeks, but things like this make me emotional and i definitely teared up. this is so so sweet.

    life isn't always what we expect or what we want, but its wonderful to think that everything happens for a reason, and God knows exactly what he's doing.

    p.s. don't mind if I steal this and write myself a letter, too. credit will be given.

  3. our lives are strangely alike. you seem so strong & i hope one day i can become like that. thank you for your example. this too, made me tear up as well.


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